Oh Fear! You are not welcome here.

I am afraid! Yes, yes. God has not given us a spirit of fear etc, etc. Despite that ever present reminder, fear still walks right through the door and sits on my heart. What am I afraid of? I think the fear of inadequacy covers it all. This week was a bit of a tough week. … Continue reading Oh Fear! You are not welcome here.

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Put the Fire Out

Amazing blog. Awesome read.

BeautyBeyondBones

I have a confession: one that I’m really not proud of.

But tonight at church, and really for the last couple weeks, I honestly have just felt…nothing.

It’s like I’ve been spiritually numb.

But tonight was different. I was actually getting angry.

I was sitting in the pew, and just inexplicably fuming, being critical of every little thing: the priest seemed arrogant. The pace was too slow. I was literally shooting daggers with my eyes at the elderly woman leading the songs. (A capella, I might add.) Who is this monster I’ve allowed in my thoughts and heart?!

But I was just checked out. And the more I thought about it, the worse it got.

I’m going to be honest: growing up, I had a few episodes of… the silent treatment.

I’m not proud to admit that passive aggressive low blow, but I have been known to give my…

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I Cried.

I cried myself to sleep last night and that's okay. Our society has plagued our minds to think that only the weak cry, only the weak feel anxious and overwhelmed, only the weak feel sadness. This is not true at all. Why do we try to regulate our feelings to the point where there is no … Continue reading I Cried.

Compromise

Daniel's Fast day 8 I had a sugar binge. I couldn't take it anymore. I was so hungry and I thought to myself "It's okay, I'll just start again tomorrow". Let me be completely transparent, I ate cookies, candy, donuts, etc. Full out orgy of glucose. That sounds a lot like how we live our … Continue reading Compromise